Sunday, November 01, 2009 Y Sunday, November 01, 2009
**Why i am not going to meet Dino/Hairul(cousin) Animore**
There is something that is left unchanged, unsaid and unexplainable. It is unbelievable how things can change that easily. I can’t believe one can do that to me. Someone who thinks I am nothing. We used to be related. I am not kidding. My cousin, who used to be my cousin.
I, Nurul Sakinah, in sound mind, propose and declare that, Hairul Azhar is and will not be related to me in blood or in relation. This takes effect from 1st November 2009.
If you ever know the story of how this family relationship ends, then only will you know how much hurt and grief I felt. I will put it this way, simple and easy for you guys to understand. I will put the story from two side, and u judge.
Story from Nurul Ekin side:
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Today, I went to my grandmother’s house with Lina & Erwin. I thought the day will be fine, but I guessed wrong. We went to buy Ananas and I am short of a few bucks cos I need to go buy beancurd for Dino. Then I didn’t realize that they put sugar syrup in the beancurd, so we had to make do with it. Then I have some balance of my cash money, just enough to buy another beancurd without sugar. This time without the syrup. Got it for Dino, and we remember that he doesn’t like that. Lina took the time to queue to buy that for him.
So, Lina & Erwin went to nenek’s house first and I proceed to Dino’s house first. To pass some cash to him and went to nenek’s house together. Walked there, but it was so hot. Damn, and I was wearing my jacket. I know, stupid. So we reached there and the first thing I did, eat! Like durh, must eat, I didn’t eat okay. And Eqi told me, must eat so I can be healthy. LOL! Then the usual stuff, went online for awhile, then up again. It was an awkward day.
**skipped some useless info here…this is where the fight start and gets interesting**
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I was there, sitting in the dining chair, playing lappy, as usual, minding my own business. Then Dino pointed his fingers at me, and accused me of felony. He said, I used nadia’s name to disguise myself as her and meet other guys. I stood up to him, and of course, denied the act. Because I know that I was not in the wrong, I didn’t do anything. I never admit to such doings cos I never did it.
Then he shouted at the top of his voice and shoved me at my chest/breast area super super hard. There was a huge thump and I fell backwards to the floor. My wrist broke my landing and either I twisted, sprain or fractured my wrist. I can’t type right now and its hurts a lot when I move it. The only thing I could do was cry. I mean, I was in shock. My body didn’t move when I fell and I couldn’t think of anything else. I can’t believe he shouted at me, screamed, and shoved me. I am his elder cousin. And it was because his previous flame said someone used her name to chat and meet up. He accused me just for that girl? I know I am just his cousin, but I know if one day, he has to choose between his girl and his family, he would rather be with her. It’s too obvious isn’t it?
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And all the time I sacrificed for him, do things for him so just he will be okay has all just gone to waste. All just gone because of this. I was so hurt that the only thing I did was cry. Even if I tried laughing, I can’t. When they say, blood is thicker than water; it also means it hurts more when fights happen. And the only thing I can think of is to severe ties with him. I was really hurt. I think only he and me knows how far we went as cousins and all the things we have been through and share. I know he treasures Nadia more than me. But even so, he should spare a feeling for me. A thought about my emotions and feelings and what I have done just so he can smile.
I went to great lengths just to make his day and so he can smile. But he never thought of it. I gave him my last $30 so he could finish off something important. That $30 was suppose to last me for the week but I gave it to him cos it seems way more important. He never thought of that, did he?
And right now, the hurt and pain I am feeling is ever growing for him and that girl. I am sorry if I sound selfish but the hurt I am going through right now is super bad. I can never forgive him, unfortunately, I can’t forgive him. We used to be so close, but when this happen; I think there will be no getting back together.
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I am sorry, but this hurts me too much and I think that there will be no end. I will cherish the memories we had as cousins, but at the same time I will try forget about us ever being cousins. And about ever doing the things we did before. And please forget about what we use to do, what we shared and what fond memories we have. Forget me as your cousin and I will do the same thing. Please.
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Nita;
a former cousin.
